Thinspiration!

Last night I watched the Season Finale of The Biggest Loser, sadly I didn't watch the season, and I wish I would have. One of the finalist Hannah caught my attention, she and her sister Olivia were on the show together, and in the end the grand prize was between the two of them. In the end her sister Olivia ended up winning the grand prize, but it was a very close race! Weight has always been a constant struggle for me, and seeing the way these ladies felt when they got on the scale last night, and had weight loss between 120-130 pounds was empowering!

I have started so many Monday diets in the last few years, that usually end at about 8:35am, when I have a Dr. Pepper, and something totally unhealthy for breakfast! I have never in my life been the skinny girl, in High School when I was extremely healthy and active I was a size 12/14, and I couldn't have been happier. I don't want to be a size 4, I'm pretty certain my bones are bigger than a size 4...lol...but I don't want to be the "fat friend" anymore. I don't want to feel uncomfortable in my own skin. I don't want people to tell me, "you're such a pretty girl, BUT, you'd be much prettier if you were thinner." I don't want to have to make jokes to distract from the fact that my weight is an issue, and that it does bother me. I want to be able to walk into a boutique shopping with my girlfriends, and buy something off the rack. I want to wear shorts, and tank tops, and not worry about showing my arms or legs. I have set a goal for myself of losing 75 pounds. That will put me at my High School weight, and I feel like I would be healthy, and feel better.

I know that this is not impossible, but I do know it is going to be HARD work. I know my first step will be a change in my eating habits, and cutting out caffeine. I haven't decided if I want to join a gym, or if I want to try to workout on my own. Have any of you struggled with weight, and found a system that works? If so, what are some tips that you can share with me? What are things you ate? How did you stick to a workout routine?